Life Can't Wait...

The Departed

2009-02-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

The agenda of the week was grim despite it being still in the midst of Chinese New year:

The lost of one’s love one is something indeed painful, and something full of grief. Especially in the midst of Chinese New year, which was suppose to be an occasion full of joy and laughter. For me this year, the occasion took a stop halfway through when the news of the death of my grandmother came on Monday night.

My family knew it was a matter sooner or later, and we had to face it as part and parcel of life; life and death its all part of life. And we all have to face it as it comes along.

Life can be so unpredictable at times, and we have to treasure it. For the case of my grandmother, little did she know that she would led her last part of her life battling cancer. She lived a healthy life throughout, but when she was diagnosed with cancer, it was also something we did not expect. And, it was a treacherous period of time for her and my family indeed.

She was a good grandmother of mine and a loving mother. I remembered those times when she would take off just to visit my family occasionally, and each visit would be a couples of days, staying at my place. And with each time, there will be lots of food that she would bring along. And the numerous culinary lessons and skills that she shared with me; make “mee hoon kuay” from flour, cook delicious yam cake from all the raw ingredients, cook a variety of dishes (restaurant style, as she used to work in restaurant), plus many other culinary ventures. Apart from that, I still remembered that she never forgets our birthdays. Each year, without fail, she can remember all our birthdays, from her youngest granddaughter to her eldest son. And each time she would give a hefty ang bao nearing the date of our birthday.

She led a full life though, and a part of me is glad that she left us peacefully. And that she was able to have at least gone through Chinese New year with the whole family for the last few moments of her life. I guess that would be what anyone would want knowing that your time is up.

“There is so little anyone can say for there are no words that have ever been invented to fit the loss of a loved one.”

Thank you grandma, for all the things that you have done, and for being there as a caring and loving grandmother of my life. You are always cherished by your family and loved ones.

Now that you are with the Lord, i pray that goodness and mercy shall follow you for the rest of your life.

Ps.Thanks for all your heartfelt condolences and encouragements.

The 牛Year

2009-01-31T00:47:00.006+08:00

Happy 牛 year everyone!

Lots of things have been going on lately, and i just realized that i haven been updating my blog recently.

First it was Final year project, 2 IS projects, and 1 other core module project. Took up most of my time i can say, as all of the deadlines were close to one another, and knowing my group is THE BLACK HORSE!

Had couples of nights awake with the help of the new zodiac, the Ox friend, the Red Bull. Which actually manages to keep me awake for like more than 30 hours! Amazing isn't it?

But right now, all the projects are finally completed. No more presentations, not more projects for the rest of poly! Hurray!

So its a new year of the ox. What plans do you all have?

As for me there is nothing much to plan for this year except to look forward to going to army and then when i'm inside hope to ord quickly. But of course, i'm looking forward to my trips before NS, hopefully they do get planned out first.

Current plans that i can make are mostly not for this year. I'm still deciding on what path should i take after army; continue studying a degree course, or should i go out and work first, or maybe sign on the army? Which is the better choice, i still have not decided.

Let just move along man. i guess.

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The new year the 牛 year. It wasn't fun at all for me this oxy year. All the hassle and bustle, it just dies down to no fun at all, after having been through 19 Chinese new years in my life already.

My grandmother is 74 this year, and she is battling cancer, which had her going in and out of hospital for at least the last half of 2008. She was back then going in and out of hospitals for chemo-therapy, surgery, checkups etc.

Oddly enough, for the hundreds and thousands pills, injections, and therapy, her conditions seem to be no avail.

I guess it was also quite sad for us to see her on the first day of Chinese new year at my place. Cancer had crippled her whole immune system to a point that she is just a frail old lady awaiting for people to care for her lying by the bed. Within 3 months, the destruction to her body was so great that she is now too frail even to care for herself, and we have to heave her in and out of her bed and wheelchair.

I'm writing about my grandmother is because it was probably the last Chinese new year celebration with her, unless things really change for the better.

And back to my busy busy new year.

This year was something different than the norms which was at my grandmother place. It was held at my place having mention the condition of my grandmother she was brought to my place for the celebration.

Food was excellent except this year was like pot luck cause it was usually prepared by my grandmother, but still with the usual fare that my family have each year. I do also have a share in preparing the food which i cooked stewed mushroom with "fa cai", and help in cooking the highlight of all the dishes, abalone porridge.

So lunch on 1st day was fabulous! Apart from the mushroom and abalone porridge, there was also yam cake, and braised duck, plus some other dishes.

And of course, every new year there must be ang bao, and of course some form of "game", which i can say i had no luck at all and lost terribly, but fortunately my bets were small.

Anyway, gonna sleep already. Have a happy new year.

Beautiful

2009-01-11T15:19:00.007+08:00

Dawn, Dusk and Day.

Was bored from all the projects and decided to play around with Adobe Photoshop Light Room 2.

Higer one's expectations, greater the disappointment

2009-01-09T16:59:00.005+08:00

It can't be help.

It happened more than once last time.

And I guess it will happen again this year.

Unless...

The New Year

2009-01-06T21:22:00.005+08:00

Its really really been quite a long while ever since i touch this blog.

I've tell myself, one of my new year resolution, not procrastinate.

Procrastination had been my forte in 2008, and this is nothing to be proud of. I'm had been a god damn procrastinator, and damn. But, I shall, or least try to not let this bad habit of mine be brought to the new year. New year day is over, so is Chinese new year which i meant.

SO, I'm trying to start to update this blog regularly again. And my apologises for any lack of updates. More updates will come for the new year. 2008 had been a great year, and i hope 2009 will be even better.

But for now, gotcha complete my project, project and project and project. 4 of them.

Bye for now, still got a 200-300 page report to write at hand.

Two Thousands & Nine

2009-01-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

A brand new year. Brand new hopes?

Where do i move from here?

Its Worth it After All

2008-12-08T21:08:00.003+08:00

Went for Standard Chartered Marathon on Sunday!

Whoo Hoo! Completed the run actually, and its my first time running such a distance! 42.195 Km! Woots!

Group Shot.

Finishing Point.

Was almost limping at the finishing line! I did though - after the race. Leg still sore and pain today man! Can't believe i still have to wheel myself around the house on my computer chair.

Update more after next week man! I've told myself that i will take some time to revamp my blog too, getting boring.

ZERO time left to blog for now! Ciao.

Youth Outdoor Camp

2008-12-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

Its a poster i designed for the camp. A little late though.

If only i had more time...

2008-12-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

Stress level rise to the MAX lately!

Projects.

Common tests.

Camp stuffs.

Its enough to keep me busy.

School work has recently is starting to become a pain in the ass.

But i know i'll have to pull through all this and i will.

Cheers! For a better tomorrow.

Full Swing!

2008-11-28T00:18:00.004+08:00

I apologize for the lack of updates lately, and i guess great updates won't be coming any sooner, not until i'm settled with my camp and projects and common test.

Pretty busy with lots and lots of stuffs lately. Many many things have gone on since i last left. Pretty packed with camps, cca meetings, final year project, and the mountainous school work that i have to catch up before common test finally come. (Thought is already round the corner)

Nafa is round the corner for me, which is next week, followed by my medical checkup for army next fri. Gosh! Gonna go NS soon. Anyway, i having neutral feelings for NS. I'll be just taking it as it comes along.

Camp is round the corner in about 2 weeks time, and i guess till then, fantastic updates won't be sooner!

See you when i see you! Cheers :-)

"Oh Crammy!"

2008-11-01T08:33:00.005+08:00

Yeah, I've taken ill. Awful. And I really felt weird. Luckily for now, i'm better.

It was already past two day, and boy, i gotta say my diarrhoea was killin' me. So yeah, must be the food i ate on tue. Felt queasy and kinda vomitty after tue lunch. Or perhaps i was all this while on the verge of fallin' ill, just needed something to trigger it off.

Tue night was when everything started. Came home after Outreach reach meeting at about 10 pm plus. Felt kinda tired, and went to bed straight.

Realized i didn't even had my dinner, but was not at mind to think about it at that moment. Something just felt not right. And oh it came at around 2 am plus in the middle of the night. Woke up and rushed straight to the toilet. Its a friggin' feeling you don't wan to have. Sorry, this might be obscene and graphic, but its true. I'm peeing from my butt. Damn it, liquid shit yeah. And i got this puking sensation i almost wanna throw up and that i can taste the digestion in my mouth. Went back to bed later, but it came again 2 twice in the middle of the night. The amount of liquid my body was releasing was so much each time, and it really made me wonder how much fluid i had to replenish in order to recover those lost fluid. Argh, this just made me felt so weak and busted.

Woke up in the morning feeling drifty, probably due to the lack of energy since i did not have my dinner last night and battling the virus. Had some Chinese medicine after my mum knew of my ordeal last nigh. Omg, today is 29th Wed, have meeting with in-charged later. So i think i better go to school, have stuffs to settle. But f*k, how can she even forget when i suppose she was the one who call for the meeting in front of everyone and even arrange the date! This really show how irresponsible some people can get, its not the first already, and must i send out confirmation each time before each meeting? Isn't it suppose to be in her calender! Argh. Practical in school at 8 am, and i'm runnin' late. Luckily for me, my dad offered to send me to school.

My day in school was so lethargic. Was stoning throughout the 3 hrs of practical lesson, luckily for me, my team mates were there to carry out the experiment, so i had pretty nothing much to do. After the 3 hrs lesson was a break - 5 hrs long! Should i go home or not? Thanks for alvin, he went to rent a car. Not for me, but for himself, since he just gotten his driving licence. Complaining so expensive, need to get cash card, parking coupons, top up petrol, this and that la. Somehow, and don't know how, he managed to convince himself its better for him to rent a car since he is having a dental appointment and the taxi trip would cost as much. Argh, but that is not the point, when you just gotten your license, you would want to use it, so couldn't blame him. And also thanks to him, I had someone to fetch me to see a doc during the break. Really appreciated your concern. :)

Feeling better right now. I must really say thank you to those who showed care and concern to me when i'm not really myself these few days.

Thanks.

Nostalgic

2008-10-24T09:01:00.004+08:00

Was looking at mirza's blog and came accross a post he posted on the intro of 14th committee.

The video made me felt very nostalgic. How i wish we can go through all that again. I miss you people!

So i decided to post the video on the farewell..

People, enjoy! And cherish your time together... before its too late!

2008-10-17T12:38:00.003+08:00

School finally started.

Finally back to campus for study. Can feel the work load piling up.

Omg, FYP kicking in and I gonna better get into the mood to study.

Need to catch up on my school work especially those modules covered in year 1 and 2. Omg, i have forgotten most of them.

Hopefully this last semester in school will be the most memorable and well spent one in Ngee Ann before i finally move on.

2008-10-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

Sober.. Drunk.. Sober.. Drunk..

Need a way to drown my thoughts.

The Days I Lived

2008-10-05T20:52:00.008+08:00

I've just completed 5 weeks of practical training at Chemical Process Training Center, Jurong island, and yes, tomorrow is the last week! Finally school gonna start next week, yeah, i really missed school man, the long training hours, and the 12 hours shift work has been killing me. Imagine this, waking up in the morning at around 9am to prepare to leave for Jurong island, and returning home at only around 10pm. My weekdays are literally burnt! Other than that, I've learnt a lot, and hopefully it will be useful to my future.

Many things have gone on since i really blogged the previous time. Yesterday had OB BBQ at ECP, the company was fun. At least it was not some far fetch area like the previous time...at Area G. Lots of ppl turned up, mainly the year ones and the year twos, some year threes, and some of the alumni. Though i know more of the members now, but somehow the feeling wasn't too right. Went for a short cycle along with Wenting, Rebecca, HuiHong, and Eugene along a stretch in ECP. Kind of brought back memories of last year night overnight cycling with 14th comm.

My involvement in OB has stepped up lately. Right now i'm in charge of December Outreach Camp, a new direction the school is heading to attract prospective students into Ngee Ann. Planning has started several weeks ago, and hopefully, be a wonderful learning and fun experience for each and every individual of my sub comm. I'm kinda stuck with sucky schedule and can only meet you guys after 9 pm all these while, sorry for all these inconveniences caused. I'm kinda glad that things will turn out better next week, when i'm back in school. Hurray! And well done everyone for the games try out on saturday especially my two PCs and LOs for getting everything in place and done and not forgetting, of course is my hunky and pretty ACCs, Derrick and Aifang respectively for getting things along when i'm not around. A big thank you them and my subcomm!

Looks like a whole lot of stuffs too be cleared after GLC camp too. Got things trashed out during the camp, and yes, i was far from excellent. Yes, i'm severely lacking and got lots to learn. Every moment of our life belongs to the present only for a moment; then it belongs forever to the past. And i got to make the best of every moment.

I've been thinking a lot about something else these days. Something is finally plucking the silent strings in my heart. Even though i love loneliness, i guess i wanna know how its like to be loved. Some realities are born from imagination.

But i know i can't understand people enough. I can't understand anyone else, or even myself. I don't wish to hurt anyone and do not want to hurt anyone, but is so confusing between my heart and mind. I do not have any ill intentions, but then i don't know what excatly my intentions are at all.

Someone please help.

2008-10-05T00:58:00.002+08:00

Maybe its time for some real soul searching...

"True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable." -Dave Tyson Gentry

Busy Busy

2008-09-25T08:55:00.001+08:00

I'm lately damn busy... Will be back right soon.

Farewell My Friend

2008-09-17T01:12:00.002+08:00

Today marks the day that one of my best buddy is flying off for China, Xi'an for 4 months for is industrial attachment.

We have been great friends, started even before we came to know one another in the 14th committee more.

Safe return, and enjoy your trip.

I'm Dead Beat

2008-09-14T08:58:00.000+08:00

This has been going on for three consecutive weeks.

Great and enjoyable.

Thanks everyone.

2008-08-31T19:42:00.002+08:00

So I guess it's more than meets the eye

There are so much feelings that fills beyond my emotional brim
Nonchalance, it weighs out all cynical thoughts
And I guess this is it
While you lost all inspirations
Backing spacing while you find the right words
Blank
Perhaps a blessing in disguise
A quiet night

Finding some comfort in nothingness

End of Attachment

2008-08-19T09:28:00.012+08:00

I'M BACK!

Sorry for being away for goddamn long, and partly cause i'm such a lazyass procrastinator. Have also been pretty busy with attachment, report and stuffs. I seemed to feel that i'm more to the formal rather than being busy, but sometimes, infact most of the time, i'll be back home too tired to think of anything more, just want to relax a little.

But that doesn't matter anymore, cause it ALL OVER NOW! Woohoo!
6 months of attachment really passed so quickly, the last 2 weeks was liked so fast each day, probably cause i'm doing useful stuffs?

0815 - Reached my workplace

0820 - Bought breakfast from the canteen if the food was nice like mee siam or mee rebus, or just stick to "bao" if the food was like oily fried noodles or mee soto.. yucks!

0830 - Wait for my computer to boot up, meanwhile having breakfast. Had just switched over to a laptop which was like super slow, and start up can takes several minutes and sometimes even hang.

0845 - Make drink, check company email, check hotmail, then flip through Today's paper =)

0855 - Open report and look through it, with occasional "stoning", sometimes just don't feel like doing.

0855-1130 - Most of the time was spent doing my school report, with breaks in between to chit chat with colleagues, or just surf Facebook =x.

1130-1300 - Lunch time! Usually will hang around with the other students in their Portal Cabin. Portal cabin sounds so cool, arh, its just a container office. This is where we would laze around, cause no bosses around. Sometimes watch movies, play 4 player tennis on PSPs, or just find some empty table to have a good nap =)

1300-1430 - This time of the day is the most terrible - after lunch, when all your blood flowed to your stomach, and your mind will be sleepy. Zzz. Stuffs that requires me using the comp will effectively put me to sleep or "stone". Usually will do any work that requires more than sitting down in front of the comp.

1430-1500 - Tea break time, or if they have pizza or food left from the occasional meetings.

1500-1700 - Last two hours usually will be more proactive in my work. Cause having realised that the whole day has passed already! But this also include time for "socializing with colleagues! Haha.

1710 - 1720 - Pack up my stuffs, bid farewell to the technologists there who usually have to work overtime, then head for the company bus. So sad. But the good this is I'm still a student, which means no need for over work! And when its my time to work in such a industry, then i'll find a way.

This was my usual work schedule, quite relax huh! BUT this is pertaining to the last 2 weeks of attachment only! of course i was more proactive and hardworking in the start!

Some snapshots:

Woah, now is like 2 weeks break, a well deserved one probably, before i slog back to Jurong island for my Chemical Training Program under my school for 6 weeks of my rightful september holiday! Prior to that, i quite happy now, CAUSE no more waking up at 0540 am, no more rushing to catch the company bus, no more travelling to jurong island, no more sucky canteen food!

But, this also means, time to think of school work, tutorials, lectures, projects, presentations, reports, exams, tests, etc etc...

Back to reality now, i still have a presentation next week to take care of.

Till we meet, take care!

19 Years

2008-08-08T22:17:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a special day that marked everything i ever lived for, another year gone, and also the 19th year of my life so far.

I had celebration earlier this week with my friends, family and colleauges, but otherwise it could be just any ordinary day.

Many things have shaped the journey i've come through all the way till today, and manyof these things are things i wish never to forget.

All my life i've dreamed of breaking out of my insecurities. I've always wanted to be recognized. To find my place in this world. And i am still searching, even after 19 years of existence, for an identity i can call my own.

Right now, there is so much i need to accomplish, and in the coming of age, people are gonna expect a whole deal lot more.

Somehow i feel i have come a long way, even though it may be slow and arduous, and you can bet i cannot compare myself to people around me. Yet i am unsatisfied. Everytime i screw up, everytime i fail, every small defeat i face every time, it kills me slowly inside.

And today must be a foothold, right now, i can really says my 19 years of existences have indeed been awesome.

i recall the days in when i was still in primary school, when i was still a young child, the everyday adventure, people, and the "puppy love" among the classmates, the mischiefs and occasional brawls, it all felt like yesterday and this happy feeling still runs deep in my mind.

Secondary school life was awesome, the days seemed so carefree, and most importantly fun. The amazing years i had in 3e4/4e4 just made me felt good being around with friends. Though not exactly close as good "bro" and "sis", but most importantly everyone was just so good to be with, after 2 years together, there is just this mutual understanding between us that made my years in sec school felt great.

And now, in NP, time really passed by so quickly. All the NPOB club activities, trainings, expeditions, my committee year, the life in 14th comm, and times all went by so quickly, and i just know i'm gonna miss it. And especially the friendship, it really warms my heart. I like the people around me. I like friendship, and this way my life is blessed. and those crazy and memorable experiences.

"But of course, every sky has its clouds. I am not always in the best of moods, and friendships dry up at times. Still, that is not a problem to feel sad about. Life is a compulsive adventure, with God and people, in a world of give and take."

In sorrow, there is remembrance. In sadness there is acceptance. And it all hardships, there is friendship to last a lifetime.

"In all things there is a memory of lost joy. Being able to see this is the art of living. I know for sure, that it is impossible if heaven does not come to me first."

Insignificance. I have yet to leave my mark on this world. Indeed life after this age will become even more demanding. They want more.

"But i don't have to possess a thing to enjoy it all. There is so much to gain, and so many surprises and so many wonders to be discovered."

I need courage. Here is a man at the crossroads, life ahead is just the beginning. The way is treacherous, full of traps and dangers. But learn he will. Until hopefully someday, i can become something. That is what i wanna believe. Courage. 19 years.

Courage.

And just today, at this moment, i must confess i feel very blessed indeed.

P.S. Thanks to the people and friends who gave me well-wishes.

Exhausted

2008-07-28T00:11:00.004+08:00

"Life Can't Wait", that's i my blog title.

Ironically, I've been procrastinating and giving myself excuses just to push back stuffs.

Has lazyness or just pure tiredness got the better out of me?

I'm screwed.

Sadly because of many untouched things and thoughts that i still seek to sort out, and these things could have been done but left undone.

Sometimes i just wonder; the long train rides to work give me ample time to ponder and think over things, and perhaps, i'm always thinking too much, weighing the outcome, what if its good, what if its worst than before?

Or just perhaps god made it this way, or i'm just paranoid?

Could have all these kept me and things procrastinated time and time again, and in the end i'm left with nothing but me, myself in deep shit?

I dunno...

I can only blame myself in the end.

For now, i'm gonna start working on my report, full time, and hopefully i got to live by that title.

EDU

2008-07-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

EDU camp just ended today...

It was a successful camp, considering the limited amount of time we all had put in, otherwise it may have been much better.

Nonetheless, thanks everyone for making this camp a success.

Hurray!

The End is Nearing

2008-07-24T22:44:00.001+08:00

Attachment is ending soon...

3 more weeks, and 6 months have passed...

Reminiscences of the week

2008-06-29T10:09:00.003+08:00

I’m pretty tied up and tired lately, it’s really be a tiring week well spent since a while.

Schedule of my week:
Last Friday – Sunday: Last Friday I went for something vigorous and challenging- Mt. Ophir! It’s a fulfilling 3 days trip over the weekend. I’m kinda lazy to upload the photos right now, but meanwhile you may visit http://view-from-theafternoon.blogspot.com/ for a proper post on the trip. Brought my humongous backpack to office and head straight to meet my OB peps directly after work!

Monday: At work. Unusually tired and leg extremely from the Ophir trip

Tuesday: At work- had a farewell for one of the colleague, good food and lots of laughter listening to them “crapping!” Training in school after work with ob peps.

Wednesday: At work- a colleague brought us to an Indonesia restaurant and treated us. I had great food and a good time. Training in school with Jun Kai and Samuel.

Thursday: Rest day, not training, but still need to work of course! Went to school for race briefing.

Friday: Went to school for race preparation.

Saturday: The RACE!

I'm just to tired at the moment. Too lazy to blog anymore right now.

That's all folks!

2008-06-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

Damn it! Damn those stupid balloons & stupid bows and arrows! The system was f*k up.

It was a close shave, and indeed a really close one.

What a good day to remember –Pinnacle adventure race, a whole lot of great opportunity lost.

So, does all our trainings and effort really paid off? I doubt so.

The system was in such a way it was pure luck. Those dudes came it behind us (jun kai & samuel team, and my team), and ironically they won 2nd and 3rd.

I am extremely frustrated now. Frustrated with myself for not performing well enough, and for not letting yu heng take that shot, and maybe things might be completely different right now.

Maybe shall go for archery course again?

Fatigue

2008-06-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

I'm having Monday blues... Overslept on the train... Computer hanged... Screwed up day with the fatigue job for LL in preparation for Safety day...

I've been doing some rowing on Sunday for an upcoming Jurong Island Dragon boat race. Don't ask me why i joined the race, just needed some training to work out my body, and i suppose since my company have such an event, it will by great to join.

Went there alone on Sunday and couldn't find the way cause did not see any familiar faces. Then I spotted one of the staff. My first thought was that the group only made up of my company people pertaining to my worksite only, but to my amaze, it actually consisted of people from Shell House too, so got to know some of them too.

Rowing was great yet tirring though. 2 hours of hard rowing for the first time i've touch dragon boating since last year september.

"Keep twisting! Keep twisting!", " Long pull! Longer pull!"

Had to kept twisting my body and stretch out far to do a long pull. Even with the best paddle worth $300, all the day's rwoing left me aching all over my body. But i welcomed it. Have not felt this feeling for a long time already. 800 plus meters sprint to and fro isn't that easy, but i'm looking forward to more such trainings.

Goodbye! And good night!

Its Been Really a While

2008-06-11T22:17:00.002+08:00

And i melted when i saw her.

Its been really a while since i'm here, on this page. Time had passed; sometimes a bit too quickly, sometimes yet too slowly. I can say 3 and a half months of my 6 months long attachement is thankfully over. 2 and a half months more then is back to school. I'm starting to feel more attached to the company and the people there at least.

i guess its give and take right now, but i do hope i'm learning some more new stuffs and skills in time to come and also improve myself. These days, i've been doing the same stuffs day in day out, which i quite dread, time slowed to a stop. However things began turning better over time. Some things stayed the same, but most of it for the better.

Anywhere, Pinnacle race is round the corner, and i'm really gonna train for it this time round. Yesterday ran 7 plus kilometers with 14th comm people, just the 4 of us; YH, Daren, Rach. A good time together since quite a while i guess. Because sometimes, it just seems so hard, so enigmatic or confounding, even to imagine why i could never be like them, against superior equals.

Beauty of Randomness

2008-05-31T12:15:00.014+08:00

Woke up this morning at 4 am plus, felt my muscle aching terribly throughout my body. It was the aftermath of gym-ing the previous night. The aching feeling was great, and I welcomed it.

I went to the gym yesterday after some Pinnacle race briefing which i got to know only 2 hours before the briefing. Gym yesterday was just short one before going off for dinner with the usual OB peeps. =) Nonetheless, its a good start for a regular workout session I working on!

Initially I was going to head down to school to workout my stiff and flabby muscles alone supposing that there's no OB activity cause everyone is having their common test next week. Since there's a race briefing, and so kind OB peeps decided to wait for me to have dining together. Its been really quite a while since i last head for the gym once my attachment had started, and i getting and feeling fat already! OMG!

Just came back from a futile fishing trip this morning. That is why i had woken up 4 am plus! Haha. Went over to Changi Beach with my sec sch friend, Ouyang taking the first bus there.

The air in the morning was fresher than the air that i breath every morning! So refreshing and free from chemicals as compared to those at Jurong Island.

Hasn't gone fishing for quite a while, and even though it was futile and we didn't caught any stuffs, (not counting those pieces of inedible "crap" of course, since we usually were able to catch at least a few decent flower crabs and fishes home!! ) except for "craps" instead of crabs!

My camera was down for the past few weeks since i lost the only SD card i had. Its finally ready now after i bought a new card. So, i decided to take some random pictures with it.

Some random photos:

The "crap" that we caught accidentally.

Underneath the crappy piece of worm! Notice its size compared to my finger.

Operated on the piece of "crap".

Another piece of "crappy" fish.

This is better!

Sunglass with reflection.

25th May '08. National Runaway Cycling. Picture taken by my neighbour.

What's Up Ljj!

2008-05-27T22:54:00.005+08:00

Hey what's up with you lately ljj? So long never update and needless to say update me! I been lonely for quite a while man and i need an apology from you!

In been 3 months since your industrial attachment started, and at the very last minute, you are still rushing to complete your Interim report due to submit on 26 May! OMG! Can't you be more hardworkin' and stop all these last minute work! You know that they are due to be of sub-standard quality! What you are capable of producing far better than this quality!

Wake up man ljj! Time is running fast, and soon it will be june, july, then august, and ... you gonna better act fast or regret it! She doesn't have that much time.

Wake up and get moving now!

KO

2008-05-19T20:41:00.003+08:00

Just came back from camp (I-camp '08/'09)

Was a fun yet tiring camp indeed

Well done for all that had made the camp a succesays

I was "KO"

Slept the whole day today.

An Angel to Watch Over Me

2008-05-11T23:18:00.004+08:00

She watched by my cradle through long, sleepless nights

She taught me to pray as she knelt by my side

She guarded my childhood, and all through the years

She echoed my laughter and counted my tears

In the arms of my mother, I came to believe

That God sent an angel to watch over me.

Happy Mothers' Day!

2008-05-11T09:53:00.004+08:00

I've been gone from this page for quite a long while... Have been quite busy with life lately. And many things have happened since i last blogged. Sorry about not updating it regularly as promised.

Some of the things i remembered best.

Industrial attachment going in full swing. Both of us are now concentrating on out part, rafiqah doing the ISN for kevin, and i'm doing the alarm tracking packaged with a whole lot of VBA programming, which i had not a single clue about it! was able to enter the plant on several occasions, which was something i've always looking been forward to! Got to climb up several units, looked at the process and utilities area, and even got the rare chance to climb up a tank, which was at estimated to be more than 7 stories!

OB outings was quite frequent lately. Went to watch Ironman with OB peeps! The movie was awesome! It was made better with the company of all OB people. Also went for skating and cycling with OB peeps last saturday. A day out at the beach enjoying the fresh breeze and company while stopping occasionally along the way to take "emo" picture! haha. You may visit

Mahjong sessions! Was at Samantha's place last friday night. Reached there about 10pm plus before having a round of mahjong. I won in the end haha =) Later that night went out to had durian supper and alvin also suggested going to loyang temple. Shenglong had rented a Hyundai Matrix which had made all these possible. Thanks.

Interim report will be due in 2 weeks time, and i've not started on it! OMG! I've been slacking myself away (other than the time at work). Always procrasting, pushing things aside and nothing is done in the end. And strange enough, i don't feel worried about it at all. It just feels like i'm ready to meet something big, some final judgement or what.

But i'm just too tired to care about things anymore. Everything just seemed that they will just fall in place when the time has come.

Fustration

2008-04-29T19:53:00.003+08:00

What a bad start for the week i had.

Monday morning was terrible; forgotten to set my alarm for work, therefore work up late. Worst still, had to search for my spectacle, had doze off without tooking them off, and probably landed in somewhere around my bed.

Argh! Can't find them in time, but managed to find my older pair which was still in "okay" conditions, at least for the day. Rushed off to work, luckily was not late.

As for today, i woke up slightly earlier than usual and waited for the bus to Ang Mo Kio station. Waited for 15 minutes but no bus came. Fustrated, i decided to walk out to the main road (next bus stop) to wait for other buses. Darn it, upon reaching, the bus came .

So i had just frigging wasted 15 minutes of precious waiting time for that bus which didn't arrive on time, and wasted my effort just to walk to the next stop to take that same bus which was late! And worst of all; though i left home early, but due to the stupid bus, i was late for work! Argh... can't they be more reliable?

Pissed!

I guess life's like this

2008-04-22T22:58:00.007+08:00

Getting to lazy to blog lately, cause there weren't that many events that i'm bothered about. Sometimes after a tiring day a work, i'd just can't be bothered to even switch on my computer, let alone blogging.

Come to think of it though, quite a couple of things happened over the past few days.

Went down for GLC meeting on thursday. Was kinda regretful for attending the GLC course earlier this year. Haha. Thought that i could just be a normal member, and help out when help is needed (wishful thinking!). Aww.. i can no longer do that anymore.XP

Now that i'm the assistant head of the facilitator wing, which means some work to do including some important stuffs like camps, games, poly forum etc etc, i must really polish up the skills of my team and i before we really conduct stuffs for others.

Almost 2 months to come for my internship at Shell Seraya Chemicals, great place to be when all your friends are mugging their heads off for their final projects, exams, presentations, reports and stuffs. The good thing about Shell is that they allow you to finish your work mostly at your own pace. (must be reasonable lar!)

Now that i'm getting in the hang of things, i kinda like the place (which i sometimes used to dread). Though its a bit far in Jurong Island, but the convenience of the MRT and company's bus from Jurong East MRT, things are made easier for me. Hmm.. maybe the thing that i dislike about the place is the air; its been causing me to hav pimples outbreak more serious than ever!

Company's badmintion tournament was pretty fun, though my team had lost all 3 games (single, mixed double, men double) the first knock out stage. Sad thing for us? Not really. I see it more like a game for fun between me and my superiors and other employees, a great way to relax!

A few more weeks to the deadline for my interim report, and i haven't started on it. Always telling myself to start it early, section by section, but without fail, i would have procrastinated, and things untouched. What i really need now is some motivation to get started.

In Good Spirits

2008-04-14T23:10:00.009+08:00

My past few days was packed fully with activity, which means i don't have the time to even sit down and update. (OMG! Blog Getting dusty..)

Last friday, OB was having their trial first training. I'm sorry for not able to make it, cause on that night it's one of my best friend 21th birthday! So happen that she's havin' a chalet that night. 21th birthday is a special occasion for everyone as it is unlike other birthdays, marking the start of adulthood. So sorry OB peeps.

*****

Alright, now for what happened last Friday. It was Phoebe jie's 21th birthday party. Went straight down to Pasir Ris right after work at Jurong Island with alvin, shenglong and chunrong.

That night was full of fun and laughter. The "sabo" plot to smashed the birthday girl with cream was very successful! Her presents were also full of "tasks" that she has to complete, which makes it more exciting opening them!

We decided to give her something more practical - cash$! The gold coins also symbolize good luck and means 一路发(168)! Got to thanks Samantha and her friend. They were the ones who actually put their time and effort together to design and make a super big birthday jigsaw card with all our photos on behalf of us. Thank you very much.

In addition to those present, Shenglong baked some muffins and made almond jelly with longans, and alvin did a personal last minute gift card, which turned out quite well.

As for Phoebe, here's a message; All the best for your future endeavors Phoebe, you are now officially an adult enjoy moment while you can!!!

*****

Saturday was homecoming day at Xinmin Secondary school. Went to support the event and met up with some friends along the way. Some of them had really changed quite a bit; especially those serving the army right now. Some have become so much fitter, while some have really slimmed down a lot. Anywhere, it was good time spent - relinquishing the good old times back in XMS.

The school also seemed to have changed quite a bit; the teachers, the principal, the students etc. Despite those changes, xms still brought back sweet memories of my seconday school days and it will always be a place where i grew up in and love!

Saturday bbq with ob people was wonderful, and indeed lots of things had happened recently. It's great to see everyone together again and do some catching up!

Let's treasure the good times!

2008-04-07T20:09:00.005+08:00

i'm happy,

... i'm bummed.

i feel so whatever.

Goodbye.

Routine Updates

2008-03-31T00:02:00.006+08:00

Okay. Just the usual updates which i'm suppose to do it regulary, but did'nt have the time or effort.

Last Thursday went for company's badminton game. Company's tournament coming this April, and there were more faces this week. Many of them whom are pros, playing for many years. Saw some "tutorial" videos on badminton during lunch time, and decided to try out some strokes learnt.

But WTF, i lost my grip of my racket when trying a forehand smash. OMG! Friggin' smashed my racket on the floor. Though i still can play with it, but the crack on the frame soon grew significant, and there goes the racket. The game totally sucks man. Not only i broke my racket, but i was also out of "form", losing couple of games terribly.

Saturday was back in school for game leaderships stuffs. Slack the whole morning at home, and finally decided to drag myself to school just in time for the final game by shujuan, jacqueline (and eugene who was not around). Had fun sticking those stuffs onto dongyang and mummy-fying him with tape so tight that the other group couldn't even get a single object within.

Later that night, went to Alumni Clubhouse for dinner with OB people. Its been quite a while since we had dinner as such a big group. About 20 of us turn up, with rachel, aifang, eugene, farand joining us abit later.

Then went over to Halo Bar next door. Relaxed, chilled out, listened to people singing karaoke, chatted with OB peps, watched eugene trashing others at the pool table, and played "guessing" which somehow always Rach & mi losing and drinkin' all the booze which benjamin wanted so badly. Haha. Had a great day. Thanks to those that organized and made this gathering possible; Eugene, jun kai, and those OB peps that came! We shall have more of these gathering. Yeah?

Sunday was spent slacking at home, or rather nothing better to do. Tried to ask Samuel out, but he was working. Bloody working on a Sunday! Isn't Sunday suppose to for you to relax? And he isn't that in need of cash right? So stayed at home typing out those main points for my weekly summary report for work for the month of march. I'm suppose to have done them on a weekly basis, but somehow procrastinated till the end of the month.

Working starting again tomorrow. Haven't really gotten into the "real" stuffs though its been almost a month. Hopefully I'll get something more interesting.

Let It Rain

2008-03-26T22:21:00.003+08:00

Somehow, the sky is always gloomy these few days.
Somehow, i just like it when it rains.
Somehow i just feel wierd these days.
Somehow, i feel that am missing out on something.
Somehow, i feel so tired these days.
Somehow, too many thoughts, too many stuffs to do, too little time...

What My Name Means

2008-03-25T22:56:00.005+08:00

What Leong Jia Jun Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Wake Up!

2008-03-24T23:22:00.002+08:00

And i really must.

Its the fourth week and going. But what have i really done?

I really needed some serious thoughts about it...

Birthdays Birthdays

2008-03-23T21:22:00.003+08:00

March. A good month to be born indeed! Ghee!

Have been celebrating birthdays, birthdays, and more birthdays this few weeks and coming. At hand, i can easily name out at least 10 friends and family members have their birthdays in this month.

Today is my 2nd bro's 17th birthday, tomorrow is my dad's 48th birthday, and earlier on this month my mum's. Gosh!

Anyway, i hereby wish all March babys all the best, and luck for whatever they do!

Jus ;-)

Something Interesting Indeed

2008-03-22T01:52:00.005+08:00

Woah!

Just came home 15 minutes ago.

I had supper with the Marshmallow gang (Sheng Long, Pheobe, Samantha, Alvin, Chun Rong & me)! Its been quite a while since we had meet up since everyone has been busy with our own work and stuff lately.

Went to watch The Spiderwick Chronicles at cineleiseure with Samm & Sheng Long since Samm needed to leave her home early before 630pm. The show was great. The story of a boy who discovers a world of goblins, orges, brownies and magical creatures. Superb acting form the cast, great CG effects and the story was so thrilling that Sheng Long nearly got a heart attack during the climax! Awesome!

After the movie, we strolled our way to Raffles City to meet alvin, pheobe, and chun rong before strolling again to lau pa sa to have supper.

A wonderful night with with you ppl! Chatted a lot and DISCOVERED a lot! Had great time meeting you all again!

The supper we had.

"Ah Chun Ge" & Mi

Short of Sheng Long, he was taking this picture.

Phoebe Jie & me. Haha, alvin dun get jealous!

Something "unbelievable."

This should be more oblivious. Interesting?

Oh well. XP

Nothing Interesting

2008-03-18T21:38:00.003+08:00

And i really mena it.

Boring day at work. Sometimes i just wonder..

Monday Blues

2008-03-17T23:01:00.004+08:00

Went out with What's Next Fearotical family (thou I dun really how i gotten into it =X) yesterday night. I supposed it was the best time i had for the week. had dinner at Marina Sq Soul Garden, and celebrated Samuel Birthday. Good to see everyone again, and relinquished those times we had during the camp! Memories remain so fresh it was as though it was only yesterday. I do hope they will last this way forever. How i wished everyone could stayed a bit longer, but needed to rush for the last train, and i had to work..

Monday blues kicked in today.
It was especially terrible today when i just had a late night gathering the previous night chatting till the wee hours of the night, plus waking up at 5.30am in the morning, with weary eyes still, before dragging myself to work.

Its the start of the 3rd week of attachment already, its like soo fast! Had a week spent reading and comprehending the whole system and how those units actually produce chemicals that make a difference to our daily life in a developed country. Also helped run some errands for the technologists, and updated the monitoring system as usual.

I supposed this week will be the same for work? Kinda getting mundane right? Hopefully this week will be better, better in a sense that i'll be given work to do. Kinda ironcic right? Anyway, I'll be taking it as it goes. Can't really do much at our level anyway.

Going the Distance!

2008-03-16T02:58:00.003+08:00

I've been meeting up with my best friends these few days, friends I've met in secondary school.

Those were one of the best days in my life. Memories etched in my mind, so fresh as though it was only yesterday. I sometimes do hope they will last this way forever.

*****

We cycled throughout the night. It was fun, tiring though, but is good time and company together, like i've always wanted; time passing slowly, and enjoying every bit every second of it.

It was like back then in St. John. With Samuel being the head of "slacker" Department, and Lee Xuan back to his old habits of not bathing and stinking? Together with yong cheng, ouyang, tze howe and me.

We cycled. Through out the night. 42 km to be exact.

Gosh, going the distance really hurts my butt. My inner thighs sored from all those abrasion while cycling. But whose doesn't?

Oh well, I can't help it, can I? Nothing matters compared than a night well spent right?

Sianzz

2008-03-13T00:33:00.003+08:00

Haizz... Games leadership.. went out with jk and hh

Relinquish the good times together

2008-03-11T23:31:00.004+08:00

Have been thinking about a lot of stuffs lately, especially after stepping down from Outward Bounders Committee.

Thinking back for those times that i used to be busy everyday, juggling with meetings, camps preps, trainings, reece, school works, projects etc, gave me this wierd empty feeling. I am now officially not the main comm of the club anymore. 15th comm training camp marks the officially ending of my office period as 14th comm, and now, someone capable for i know is taking over our positions.

*****

This few days have been good. Went out with secondary school friends. Looked through some photos, and finally have some time to upload some of them.

Adaptive Dissonance

2008-03-10T23:10:00.003+08:00

There's been alot going on for me lately, and I've been so busy there's hardly any time to sit down and properly update my blog or even time to properly soak up every experience I have in a total new working environment.

One week of industrial attachment had passed so fast. With a lot of new stuffs to learn and a new environment to adapt to.

Adaptive Dissonance...

Before it had started last week, I was still anticipating and wondering what it will be like to work in one of the top petrolchemical company, Shell. Now that one week had passed, and I have learnt quite a lot in the office, I am still looking for something more exciting in the plant.

Attached to the technology department of the plant, troubleshooting and obtaining the perfect solution is the daily work of a technologist. My job, as an intern would be to help them along with their work, and hopefully lighten their duties.

I taking and learning as it comes. =)

Exhilarating

2008-03-04T05:19:00.013+08:00

Phew, finally had some time to sit down and update my blog!

It was one week since I have last touch this (new) blog, and I suppose its beginning to collect dust already!

I have lots of thoughts right now in mind, especially after handing down the nitty gritty stuffs we had to do as a committee member (for my CCA) to the new batch of comm members, and running our official last event, 15th comm Training Camp, as the 14th comm.

The past one week had been an eventful for me. Right after my exams my schedule was packed to the brim right up till attachment (started yesterday).

Went for camping and Singapore Airshow with my best buddies over the weekend (23 ~ 24 Feb), had 15th comm training camp from right after that (25 ~ 29 Feb), and then Games leadership at OBS on (1 ~ 2 March). In fact, I was actually camping out the whole week..

Here are some photos:

Yong Cheng, mi, Samuel and Shi Hong @ Airshow.

The A380 passing behind!

Shi hong with mi.

The Black Knights doing the "Curtain".

A dangerous criss-cross!

Captivated!

I'll update more, when i have the time, hopefully with some more photos to come. In the meantime, I'll need to rush to work, 5.20am already.

Till we meet, Jus signing off.

Greetings

2008-02-23T01:35:00.004+08:00

I have decided... to start a blog... big deal! haha...

Just find it that sometimes in life I’ll need some place to put my thoughts aside, plus life’s unpredictable. So here’s with this blog.

This blog, hopefully, a good one, and with many more posts to come, will be for all my new hopes, new dreams, new aspirations, new loves, new triumphs…and also new sorrows, new heartbreak, new tears, new disappointments, new pain, new… etc…

Hmm.. This ain't suppose to be boring... so I shall stop here. Do keep an eye on this blog though.